Lolamama: October 2014

Thursday 23 October 2014

3 months today!

I'm not sure how we got here but Jude is 12 weeks old today. There are moments when it feels like he was just born yesterday and yet at other times it feels like he has always been here. People always say that time flies by when you have children and this is so true. I also think, the more children you have, the faster the times goes. Savouring every precious moment is a lot more difficult now that I am trying to keep three little people happy and it is definitely a case of 'blink and you miss it'! Nevertheless, for all that time has disappeared in a flash, there have also been some long ass days in there too. On these trying days I always make sure to go into the kids bedrooms once they are asleep at night and take in their gorgeous little faces that look like butter wouldn't melt. I recall doing this when Jude was just a fragment of my imagination and wondering what it would be like to have just one more person to tuck in, that final piece of the puzzle. Now that he is here and there kaos all around me, I feel complete, completely and utterly exhausted with my sanity in tatters but complete all the same.

Three months in and the novelty of having a new arrival has not worn off for Naima and Camron. They have yet to complain about his crying, smelly nappies or my attention being diverted elsewhere. They are so in love with their baby brother and I can already see the different types of relationship they will have with him as he gets bigger. To see them forming their individual bonds and how they look after one another is a very special thing to witness and makes me so proud.

Jude will be a year old in no time at all so I wanted to make sure we had some special pictures to capture his first months with us and the last of having a small baby. Whilst I was adamant it wouldn't happen, third child syndrome has come into play. Naima's first special pictures were taken when she was 2 weeks old, Camron's at 5 weeks and poor Jude had to wait 12 weeks. Life got in the way but better late than never!

I will have a few more to follow soon but that is all for now.

Lou xxx

What's In My Changing Bag

Wednesday 8 October 2014

A Little More Love

Today I woke up with a funny feeling in my tummy. I have felt it with my other children and this morning I felt it for the first time with Jude.

I loved him from the moment I first saw him, a feeling you would think could get no stronger. Well this morning I looked at my baby boy and a wave of new emotions came over me, a feeling of butterflies, like when you fall in love for the very first time. I almost burst with excitement and happiness that this little thing, fast asleep in his moses basket is all mine. This beautiful creature, with little hands and feet, a wee pot belly and a head full of hair, is half of me and I am lucky enough to get to look after him for as long as he will let me.

Something happens as a mother, something that seems almost inconceivable. Every now and then, just when you think you could love your little one no more, you find your heart has grown bigger and has been filled with even more love than you ever thought possible.